Stepping in to D-cember

Soon we'll be stepping into the last month of 2010. It can be exciting, it can be nervous. December holds a lot of things for me... at the same it makes me wonder what another year will be. December can be very happening!! Lotsa things going on,
lotsa people to meet. And everybody is in the year end mood.
Shopping, Holiday-ing, Lazy-ing....
To describe a year like a day, december is almost = bedtime....

Time to dream, rest/recharge, have fun,
so right now, i'm also planning what to do for my December.
Most importantly, what to do on my birthday.
Probably everybody will tink everybody is going to celebrate with me.
To be honest, i'm quite kia-su in a way.
To me birthday is a big day... and every once a year.
So I rather plan something on my own than risk nobody asking me out....

Last year, was the saddest birthday for me......
Facing much uncertainties.Everything was so "pending" that I don't even know what to wish for.
Or more so, wishing for something that I know won't come true
but still hope for a miracle!

I hope this year will change my fate a little...

I hope this year will at least end well for me, despite the rough beginning~

 

眼泪

眼泪都是我的体会
成长的滋味

忍住眼泪不让你们看见
我在改变
孤单的感觉

眼泪流过无言的夜

你们从不曾发现
我笑中还有泪

Things I wish I'd known earlier

I was searching for a file in my computer when I came across an article I saved 2 years back. It was originally entitled :Things I shud've known in my 20's. Although I'm just slightly pass 20... but there are indeed things I wish I had known in my earlier!

This is my edited version from the article....

Love and Relationships

When we were young, we wanted to start a family by 25 (like mom's generation). When we reach 18, hmm.. maybe married by 25 still not too late. By the time we reach 20, probably committed by 25 also ok. Then who knows where fate brings you... Now at 25, you just wish for someone by your side ^^

I find it quite ironic that when we're young, we try so hard to stay in one relationship forever but when we're old, we try only half as hard, if at all.  No matter how painful a breakup is and no matter how much that guy/girl has hurt you, know that you will find a better one.

Health

Know that your body is not invincible. What you choose to put into your body while you're young will catch up with you years later. Eat right and exercise. I dun care if people say i'm thin. I just had my thorough body check, and the results are good. I'm born this way. If u hate me, u hate my mum! I exercise because exercise produces endorphine; and endorphine makes people happy. Tat's all I need at the moment – HAPPY!

Friends

This is truly a year, I gain my own perspective about friendships. Couldn't agree more with what the article says. When we're young, we think our friends are our world. They are the ones that know your deepest, darkest secret and you run to them for advice or for a sympathetic ear when your heart's been broken. Friends are great, they are awesome, don't get me wrong. But know that although you may think they give out the greatest advice and have your best interest at heart, they're just as clueless as you are! Years and years from now, you would be lucky if you're still friends with the friends you have now. Most of them dun last, I only wish for the best, that wherever I end up, I would still have a friend to hold me!

Family

Despite those moments when you really, really wanted to kill them. All the wind and storm thru every mother and daughter relationship. One thing I know for sure is that I'm closer to my mom than ever. I pour out more easily to her. Sometimes, I cant wait to share something with her and I'll make a call home (though I'd see her every week). It's only now that I'm on my own that I appreciate what they did for me. I realized that if my family hadn't been there to keep me in line, God knows where I would've end up now! This especially true when I went thru my break-up. My brother has been constantly reminding me to move on; my sis talking to me everyday (until today) to make sure I sleep well at night; and my mom - endless prayer securing me! N more than anyone knows, I miss my dad so much, I still dream of him.. Years and years from now, your family will still be there for you....

解脱

记得我第一次听这首歌时，是为民歌的一个partner伴奏。。。

没有特别献给谁，只是今晚突然想听，也觉得很舒服！

热泪越沸腾
我越感觉有点冷
变了心的人
越想越伤人
枯坐到清晨
阳光替房间开了灯

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我 不应该还不放手
你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个 梦
心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我 

真的有时候会失去方向感。有时会找不到平衡点。很努力地去适应。。。。

当我们同在一起

王羚柔：
突然间 下起了雨
雨让我 好想好想你 想抱着你
当我们同在一起 在一起 在一起
在一起 在一起 其快乐无比

你是我 曾经的甜蜜
我是你 爱情的过去
那一晚 美好的记忆
我们都 不能够忘记
因为我 很爱很爱你
所以能 微笑着离去
虽然我 不会在见你
幸福是 我们曾经在一起

掌声鼓励

影响力少了，虽然我承认还有，但是少了，是我长一智了吗？

熬过了。。。

一首歌的感触

我平时喜欢一首歌，不但喜欢它的旋律。如果歌词写得有意思，就会更喜欢！
有时真的很佩服作词的人。因为他们可以描写得那么贴切，那么出动人心。
昨晚睡前就随便按了手机mp3想听着，睡着去。这么刚巧播Manhand - 慢游世界。顿时我心沉了一下。歌词没有怎样特别，只是发现这首歌的哪时候，发生了一点事。是它的旋律，勾起了那首歌当时的用途。而现在听回的时候，那种沉重感又出现了。几次了，每一次发生事情的时候，事隔很久后，突然听回一些音乐，会出现那种感觉。会不小心的触动那个角落。