Enough?

Sometimes I just feel... what I do is not enough isit?
I'm so tired....

Someone told me, soon... soon you'll be alright. Once you pass this circle in life, you're stronger. Just remember nothing is permanent....

But some things are... memories.........................

My Last Day @ ISEC

While I was counting down my days @ ISEC, I wanted to try all de food that I wouldnt much have the chance to eat again....

Nasi Lemak + Nasi Kerabu is my favourite... especially on a Saturday morning for breakfast!

Homemade Lin Chee Kang is by my colleague which I gave her de recipe...

Chatime is the famous bubble we all crave for... until the minister ask to send these things for test!


Then I have my colleague a.k.a kai ma who gave me a pendant.. its cute!

Its a little high heel shoe (as I like shoes very much!) Its really pretty and special to me...

All in all, their friendship to me is my achievement in life, and I'm proud of myself, I left footprint in their hearts too. I made them a little memo clip thingy!




They have been good to me. Be it @ work or who knows me personally. I'm glad this is a good working and learning experience. With dedicated drs and colleagues who taught me everything from scratch. I truly enjoyed my experience here and I really hope I can keep in touch with them.

Once my colleague, but forever my friends!

我今年二十六岁（改篇版）

我今年二十六歲，
每天起床的時間從中午12點變成早上7點，睡覺的時間從凌晨變成了晚上11點；
我今年二十六歲，見到親戚朋友，他們不再問你考試考了幾分，是問現在一個月薪水多少，男朋友有了沒有啊；
我今年二十六歲，
聊天的話題變成名牌、旅游、汽車、房子；朋友聚会討論的往往是他準備結婚，她哪年結婚了

我今年二十六歲，
我們開始追逐夢想，不會再為了一點挫折而放棄；
我今年二十六歲，
遇到的挫折困難都當成一種人生的閱歷，試著去包容，試著去忍耐；
我今年二十六歲，
偶爾會有寂寞，偶爾會掛念一個人；

我今年二十六歲，
明明很想哭，卻還在笑。
明明很在乎，卻裝作無所謂。
明明很想留下，卻堅定的說要離開。
明明忘不掉，卻說已經忘了。
明明捨不得，卻說我已經受夠了。
明明眼淚都快流出眼眶，卻高昂著頭。
明明已經無法挽回，卻依舊執著。
明明知道自己很受傷，卻說你不必覺得虧欠我。

為的只是不让别人觉得自己讲不听，对别人造成无形的压力和难为；即使很難過，也不願別人看見自己的傷口，不想讓自己周圍的人擔心，不想讓別人同情自己，只想在心底獨自承受， 雖然心疼的難以呼吸，卻笑著告訴所有人“我熬过了！”我們在一條偉大的航路上，被社會上壓的喘不過氣的時候，我們渴望曾經的那份愛，渴望每天下班了能有個人一起吃飯，一起看電影，我們需要一個人來為我們分擔些東西。

你，有沒有這樣的時候？
莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人說話，只想一個人靜靜發呆，懷念著因為歲月流逝去的人和事。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？發現身邊的人都不了解自己，面對著身邊的人，突然覺得說不出話。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？
突然感覺自己與世界格格不入，你曾經一直堅持的東西一夜之間面目全非。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？
突然很想逃離現在的生活，想不顧一切收拾自己簡單的行李去流浪。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？
在自己脆弱的時候，想一個人躲起來，不願別人看到自己的傷口。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？
明明自己身邊很多朋友，卻依然覺得孤單。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？
很想放縱自己， 希望自己徹徹底底醉一次。
你，有沒有這樣的時候？
自己的夢想很多，卻力不從心。

好累…好累………

值得 - Sammi

关于你好的坏的都已经听说
愿意深陷的是我没有确定的以后
没有谁祝福我反而想要勇敢接受
爱到哪里都会有人犯错希望错的不是我
其实心中没有退路可守  跟著你错  跟著你走

我们的故事 爱就爱到值得 错也错的值得
爱到翻天覆地也会有结果  不等你说更美的承诺

我可以对自己承诺

我们的故事爱就爱到值得 错也错的值得

是执著是洒脱留给别人去说
用尽所有力气不是为我 那是为你才这么做

When I wish upon the star

Nothing came true.

It wasn't an enjoyable weekend for me. Again, I sacrificed a few things, made some arrangements, cancelled some dates just to make this short trip possible. The chat was ok. I'm glad it didn't turn out awkward. I was afraid we had nothing to say but in the end, we could chat from food to houses to plans and hopes. What upsets me is that there were no longer chemistry... not a tiny spark! Haiz, of course, i put on hopes because I made sacrifices.

Everytime there's an activity to do.. I'm like doing it alone. No sense of pleasure and enjoyment. The feeling like, i could have used my weekend to do something better. At least made myself laugh....

Grace Lee, this is to tell you, think twice next time, is this friendship worth your effort anymore! Next time an invitation or offer comes, please look back at today's experience and think for yourself, if he would have done any of this for you?

Decision made

When I already made my decision, dun divert me to another direction....!
I sort of "small cry" today. My colleagues start to know about my resignation and asked me to stay, or many of them ask why I'm leaving. My boss sort of hinted me that he wanted a long chat with me to find out what's wrong. I'm sad and torn. Its a great place to work at, its a great company with great people to work together with! Still the reason why I'm leaving is I want to pursue something closer to my field I studied. Something that can make me grow.
I remember when I first joined, one day during lunch, my boss ask "So what do you tink abt tis company, is there alot of ppl bitching around or gossiping non-stop? or back stabbing?" I said no. Cos I really think everyone worked well with each other. My boss asked "how u know, this' ur first job, u haven't seen the rest"... But until now that i'm leaving, still the answer is "no"... this is really a great company built on friendship, not just as colleagues! We're one big group of people who dun mind spending time together even after working hours.
不舍得sure will have...I will handle that my own. But dun come and ask me to consider another department, or negotiate for higher pay... WTF? This is from those who in the first place encourage me to leave now asking me to do like dat...dun try to confuse me. I'm lacking confident and I want very much for people to support me so that I know even if this new job fail, I will have you to stand by me.
I'm honestly very nervous right now....

Tension of Opposites

Its been awhile since I last updated my blog. I have been busy, yes - going here and there. Finding life's second options, complaint and complaint and complaint summore. I'm honest that I still dun feel satisfy with my life. I dun get answers to my questions when i needed the most.
I have been looking for a new direction since early this year. I wanted a change in my job. I can't get a man, so might as well die rich...so tat's what my brother say. I love everything about my job right now...only thing is flat... no more rhythm, no more tempo. I need a change.. and I was so desperate that I almost applied for any job tat I come across. When I got no notice, i considered lowering my expected salary, still no news, I decided to erase my Master's qualification off the resume. Wasted u tink? I wish my frens would understand how bad i feel but i dun need you to make me feel even worse! Because when i told my frens i couldn't find a job, they'll usually say "Masters wor?"... So?
Master's right now is only a very normal certificate, printed on the same kind of paper quality and using the same school chop! I know I know, i wasted my time (1yr still ok la), I wasted my money (was on scholarship, so ok as well), wasted my effort on a guy who later left me right after I finish my Masters.
Anyway, then all of a sudden, all the offers came. Was busy going every where for interview. Then spent time on the phone, talking to different panels for opinion. On one hand I was excited that at last I got an option to change, on the other hand now I really have to deal with leaving my comfort zone. I'm basically leaving what I already have for something that I'm not certain of. I duno if I'm goin to succeed in this new future. What if I dun like it? What if this is not my expertise? Change again?
I was very much in a dilemma whether to jump for the opportunity or not.I need a back up plan. I ask "what is the worse that could happen? what do I do then?"
To take or not to take?

Surprises

I love the feeling of surprises... its truly something that shows the meaning of "action speaks louder than words"... a simple surprise keeps the memory much more than something u give as a gift. Of course, there are also people who dun have much "talent" in preparing surprises, but remember these are the people whom, when they give a surprise, it means even more!!!

I'd always like to give people surprises whenever I can...and I've seen quite a few memorable ones, but never Once on me. In fact, i almost din get any. In fact, i've always been the one preparing my own birthdays celebration, for fear nobody will "date" me... haha, and birthday only come once! Just recently, I celebrated a friend's birthday, by cheating him to dinner (using no dinner at home as an excuse-lame)then bring out the cute little cupcakes... and a hand sewn pillow (totally 100% hand made from raw materials)... I enjoy the process of preparing, and obviously love it when I see those smiles.. its worth it!

Another one was a handbag I bought for my sister (she asked for it). The bag comes with a few function and style, so I decided for my whole family to pose with diff style of taking the handbag.. make it like a menu book then post it to my sister, who's in JB. Aha, she called the moment she opened the box!!!

Yesterday was mother's day. I had been thinking a while ago, what else could be special after my 25 years on earth! So i bought a bouquet of roses (fake - sponge type), bought a beautiful pearl necklace. Because of a dinner function on Sat night, I had to travel 5.30am in the morning back to Seremban (need to be home before mom wakes up for church). Open the door quietly, set out breakfast on table with the bouquet and necklace on the table and went to sleep in the next room. Of course my mom was damn surprise to find me back home, and all the "things" on the table...she definitely love it...

My next project? My brother's birthday this Sunday. I've already found the perfect gift for him - a special dining experience for him & his wife!


p/s: Sometimes I think, I'd make a good boyfriend ;p

Edited Version

A good fren of mine gave me this brilliant idea!

Once upon a time,


I WONDER WHY...... (Del Shannon)
As I walk along I wonder what went wrong
I'm a-walkin' in the rain
Tears are fallin' and I feel the pain

BREAKING MY HEART.......(MLTR)

There is no excuse my friend

For breaking my heart again

This is where our journey ends

You're breaking my heart again

IT MUST HAVE BEEN LOVE....(Roxette)

It must have been love, but it's over now
It must have been good, but I lost it somehow
I wake up lonely, in this air of silence

Now I learned,

 

FIGHTER.........(Christina)

Makes me that much stronger

Makes me work a little bit harder

Makes me that much wiser

Thanks for making me a fighter

 

 

 

 

 

BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY.....(Fergie)

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone

I've gotta get move on with my life

Its time to be a big girl now

and BIG girls don't cry

 

 

 

you're not IRREPLACEABLE.....(Beyonce)

You must not know bout me

I can have another you by tomorrow

So don't you ever for a second

get to thinking you're irreplaceable

What happen next?......

 

 

 

LIFE GOES ON (Leann Rimes)

Its only gonna make me strong

Is my life before me and 

I know I can still go back

Life goes on

 

 

GOTTA BE SOMEBODY (Nickelback)

Coz nobody wants 2be the last one thr
Evryone wants 2feel like some1 cares
Somebody that feels the same
There's gotta be somebody for 

me out there

 

 

SINGLE LADIES.... (Beyonce)

All you single ladies

Now put your hands up

Up in da club  Just broke up

Doin my own lil thing

Ok, I'm gonna have to do my own things dy... Chiaw~

Mission Impossible vs Mission Failed!

那天还兴致勃勃要采取一个“拯救”行动。以为自己勇敢起来。其实我只是想给彼此一个机会。那么难做朋友噢？那么大个人了，面子这样重要吗？
幸好我早有做好心理准备，知道自己蛮天真，相信他是个好人。我尝试了，却没有回应。Ok,收工。。。我已经踏出那一步了，我不需要做到刮花自己的脸，跪在地上。当然一开始应该很多人都认为不用多此一举了吧！我是那种要做，做到底，不要留一丝后悔。事后有朋友问我死心了没？啊~ 其实啊，有什么好死心的？我只想尽我的能力挽回我觉得值得的友谊。那么事实证明我又再次看错人，那也是对自己的一个交代，和提醒自己，这段我以为很宝贵的友谊，其实经不起考验！没有试过又怎么知道原来那么脆弱？原来是一场游戏，一场梦？
有些友情随着时间改变了，我没有以前那么执著地想“为什么你变了”？只是每当我看见我们，我想告诉你，我内心酸了一下觉得可惜。。。每一年你我都会交换生日礼物，是因为我们还是知己，还是多年来成了习惯？我们已经没有共同的话题，只是还在找对白保持联络。当我知道你为了你爸去世的事多么难过，我想说谁会比我更了解那种不舍和伤痛？我第一时间奔回去，但发觉原来我能做的都已经不够了。然后也因为工作性质和居住的距离，心的距离也跟着遥远了。你喜欢黑咖啡，我爱加糖。一个Gap就是一个Gap。这是随着时间的流逝，再也补不回的空洞.

感动一个人,往往只需要一句话

一位教授每天早晨在街上散步,无论见到任何人, 总是热情地打一声招呼: [早安]
其中一个年轻人叫米勒,对这位教授的问候,起初反映冷漠。但这未曾改变教授对当地人民的热情。每天早晨他仍然给这个一脸冷漠的年轻人道一声早安。终于有一天,这个年轻人脱下帽子,也向教授道一声早安!
很多年以后的某一天,当地人民被一群土匪集中起来,有些是被指去枪毙了...当教授碰上这群土匪,他习惯地脱口而出:[早安]... 这时他们的指挥官站了出来,抬头一望,是米勒先生!米勒虽然一副严肃的脸，却禁不住还了一声问候：[早安]。就这样，教授被释放。。。
人其实是很容易被感动的。往往一声热情的问候，温馨的微笑，很可能让一个不相识的人走近你！
从前我也有过这样的一份感动。一句简单的问候足够点燃我的一天。

那男人对我说: 你脆弱

心很空 天很大 雲很重 我恨孤單 卻趕不走
捧著他的名字 他的喜怒哀樂 往前走 多久了

 

我脆弱 像泡沫碰泡沫 被戳破
像薄膜擠薄膜 快壓破
自信過 像蛋殼被輾過
我還能相信些什麼
當承諾和溫柔都被揮霍

剩我一個人執著 又算什麼

他 漸漸忘了我 但是他並不曉得
遍體鱗傷的我 一天也沒再愛過

 一個人心中只有一個寶貝 久了之後 他變成了眼淚

那麼 為什麼是我 我真的脆弱
為什麼 我不覺得快樂 也不覺得難過
為什麼而活 愛又算什麼
好多假動作 我們都寂寞

What would you do?

The other day I went to watch the movie "Source Code"

# Its about a guy who became the government's experiment that enables him to live the final 8 minutes to find out who is responsible and prevent a bombing attack. #
He did ask, what would you do if you had one minute left?

Although, not many can really live like dat... but then I really think sometimes if we can think like dat, a lot of things can be done, a lot of question can be save asking, and a lot of "misunderstanding" can be understood!
If we dun have much time left, would you still consider if each other is over the dilemma situation, then only u start talking again?
Would you still consider to give each other time, time and more time?
Would u consider your reputation more important than your relationship? All aspect of r'ship, not just BG r'ship. Otherwise, all these are bullshit!!
If you have not much time left, you would have said "I love you" who cares if u failed, coz you may think I've got nothing to lose anymore.
If you have not much time left, you would have said "I'm sorry" whole hearted-ly, coz you may think you dun wanna end your journey with a single regret.
If you have not much time left, you would have said everything single word from your heart, coz you know there may never be a second chance.

So then why cant we live life this way? Coz we know we still have time? Then we're wasting it...
Coz we may turn out "paiseh"? Then we're not being honest to ourself and to that person.
Coz Asians dun usually talk that way...? Then why not?
In fact, even if u cant / dare not speak that way, you shud not despise if someone had the guts to talk to you that way...! Accept it with open mind. Sometimes just listen to what the girl have to say..she might just wanna tell u a simple message. As simple as the words she say.

Total Exclipse of the Heart

This few days, thank God for friends who still check if I'm alive...
I'm really much better in the sense i can still function normally. Only thing is that my mind is still constantly tinking. It kills me to know that the person is so close to you yet the heart is so distance. I keep tinking of many possibilities. But I guess, i'm just waiting for myself to be overwhelmed and then i will slowly slowly learn to let go. Guess that's my personality. When I fall ill I would oso take my time to rest, try to heal myself, try to see if I can handle it my own. Unlike my sister, one sound of cough, she's off to the doctor. She always say, faster see doctor, faster get well; faster get well, faster back to work. To me, I tot sickness will eventually heal... doctor is only there to help. So are my frens.. They are the ones making the healing process faster. The faster I get well, the faster I move on ...

Life - what comes and goes, nothing is permanent!

Big Big Girl

I can see the first leave fallin
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like de way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's now rainin
and tears are fallin from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
Its not a big big thing
If you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will miss you much
Miss you much......

Chapter 2

今天天空灰似心情
两个礼拜的内心挣扎，情绪波动，今天告一段落。
我冷静了下来，往后看了这几个月来发生的趣事。
谢谢你的关心，一 直没有告诉你，我很喜欢，谢谢！
可能你还没想到该怎么做
可能一路来是我一厢情愿以为你对我很特别
可能我真的寂寞很久了所以你的关心,我太在意！
我想谢谢你， 还是我的好朋友。。。

或许我太直接
或许我太冲动
或许我不喜欢猜测对方的心
做朋友，做情侣，我仍然相信诚恳，坦白。
想说,我很喜欢这份友谊,不想毁掉 。。。

记得有人说过：
不管谁在你生命中停留过， 就算不久也应该珍惜，
因为你从来不知道大家能停 留多久。
每个人一生都得学习， 包括学习不痛。

命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默 
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆 
回忆如困兽 寂寞太久而渐渐温柔 
放开了拳头 反而更自由 

我们在 告别的演唱会 说好不再见

我想写首 送给你的情歌
长镜头 越拉越远 越来越远 事隔好几年
我们在 怀念的演唱会 礼貌的吻别
陪我唱歌 清唱你的情歌
舍不得 心还热着 也该告一段落
还好我有 我下一首情歌
生命宛如 静静的 相拥的河
永远 天长地久

Chapter 2 暂时画上句点
休息为了跑更长远的路。。。下次我会准备好的！

忍耐

我发现男人都很喜欢考女生的忍耐力。就只因为我们善良，我们愿挨，我们软弱，就有资格要我们无条件的参与你摆布的游戏吗？我好不容易才帮自己擦掉伤口里的沙，包扎好。。。试着走路。幸好有个好心人扶了我一把，走了一会儿，又放手了说有更重要的事等着他。
这样等下去很好玩吗？我真的快呼吸不了了。。。我不想把自己搞得那么累，那么可悲。我记得丽红对我说过：“何必把自己弄得伤痕累累的？” 是不是如果我不出声，你也不举一动？是不是如果我们什么也不做，你愿意让这段友情/感情/多情悄悄溜走？是不是如果我一字不提，你也可以当作是一场梦？是不是我做的一切是丢给墙壁作回应，而你做的是给你填补空档时间？
我现在一直压抑着的心情，我还没哭，还好还没到极点。

真的好人?

你的笑容 腼腆中打倒我

还不到一分钟 你早镇住了我

加快我 告白的冲动 

一阵莫名幸福深深撼动着

你笑着对我说 好人卡只配好朋友

这个时候 你送给我 好人卡哦！成了迷惑

你的喜欢 友情以上 恋人未满 没有答案

可是你说的喜欢 我知道不是爱上

我有很多话很想跟你讲 

我可以 为了你 坚定不移放逐我自己

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

我可以 惊天动地怒放向全世界宣誓

爱上你完美了一切

我可以 日日夜夜为你写首爱的诗句

因为我爱着你   因为我爱着你

多么想永远和你在一起

知道的谎言；不知道的事实

昨天我担心极了。。。心里真的很不安。我有一股冲动想奔回芙蓉。结果都没有，只是过程中，问太多，说太多，做太多。朋友会问我说，你觉得这样做会得到你想要的答案吗？我只能说，明知道是一个谎言，永远不会懂的事实，但是还是得问，来个了断。
只是事后，我后悔太冲动。现在好像涌太多，要好好给他吸收，要退后。我害怕经过这次的冲动会带来改变，我害怕经过这次，我白费了之前好好经营着的感情。。。。我害怕是我亲手毁了这段友情。或许以后可以回到当初。但是我不排除如果不是因为昨天的冲动，我们可能可以走得更远！

第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸 
有什么故事好想了解 我感觉我懂你的特别 
你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗 
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光  
就算你有一道墙 我的爱会攀上窗台盛放  
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化 

我想说：原谅我的关心，我的出发点只因为你。

爱君如梦

不准我讲 请准我想像  梦到底比真实欢畅
 

知得太多 便换来失望  梦至少比醒来开朗

只想找一双手臂当床 暂时让我躺
 

爱若是沉重 开心不过能做梦

就算超出可担当的体重
 

巴掌也都不痛  分手也都不痛
 

但掠过梦中  亦会面红
 

我只记得 快乐如闪电  梦里摆 一千场喜宴

要是明天 再没明天  不必想起爱的缺点

不敢妄想被别人倾慕 但至少可真实一舞

美梦成真 美梦成假

不管真假举起了脚步 暂时未跌倒

 

 

梦 . 可以 . 收藏心中最美丽的画面.........

Rainbow before the Rain

At one point of life, I lost hope. Feelin like I couldn't go any further from where I am now. I keep tryin new things, hoping for a change to take place, but it all brought me back to the same starting point. The outcome has alwiz been disappointing only each time I pick myself up faster. Yet, its suffocating, I was desperate for a breakaway.
Then I came upon a chance to feel a lil warmth, see a lil light. I tot to myself, tis could be the end of the tunnel.I'll take it slow tis time. I will cherish even while i'm in de dark. I appreciated it. Somehow it gave me a reason to slow down and find out if you could be that better place.
I like it when I found that smile in me again after quite some time. I like it to know that everyday is the same old day except that you became the lil difference in each and everyday. I like it when birthdays come once a lifetime, and I had the honour of marking down one of your lifetimes! I like it when journey can be long or short, but u became the beginning and the end.
Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you had something for me. But maybe, just maybe, maybe I'm just tired of being alone. I hated to be on my own. I wish tis time God's for real... give me a guardian angel. Is it gonna be a joke again?
When you asked me de other day what was wrong, I smile and said nothing. When you turn around, a tear came down and I whispered to myself.... everything is!

陽帆 / 江蕙...一種感覺

刚看 Mr. J 频道觉得这首歌很可爱

有的时候我感觉你好温柔
有的时候我又感觉
你对我是如此的冷漠无法捉摸
为了什么请告诉我

 

虽然你对我是真的不错
可是我还无法接受为何
不先做个普通的好朋友
说声抱歉你的关怀我留在心中

 

我感觉我好寂寞
请你不要对我沉默

我只能对你摇摇头
我的拒绝不会伤害你什么

也许我们彼此了解不够多

 

就让那份感觉留在期待之中

再编织着美丽的梦
这种感觉在不言中

 

难熬的 Weekdays!

星期一离开家的暖暖被窝，都有不舍的感觉。。想念的是周末的自由。
星期二思念少一点点， 尽量对新的星期充满盼望。。。希望平安度过。

星期三寂寞开始渗入，来到一个星期的“中”点，却好像很久没你的消息了。
星期四希望能撑过难熬的工作日子，因为我真的想你了。。。
星期五的我比较放松，因为找到一个send 短讯的理由！
周末让我放肆。。。。期待快乐星期天！

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough - Yan Zi

I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.

I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

Like a fool who will never see the truth,

I keep thinking something's gonna change.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

There's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's their heart you can't touch.

 

你想表达什么

每次朝你走前一步; 就怕踩到你的界线

而你的界线却每天不停地在改变

没有勇气去知道真正的答案,因为怕受伤,所以逃避

 

 

 

 

省回...

开始看开什么都不由自己做主，因为早已安排
而自己也不用辛苦去为事情的发生而难过，因为早已有安排
很好的例子：
有一天我睡迟了，遇到大塞车而迟到
结果第二天我特别早出门，但是人家车祸造成塞车，我也迟到
那几天老板以为我都爱迟到，事实我有用心，却不如天算
我努力也中招，随意也中招
发生也是要接受，没有发生也要接受
拥有也要感恩，没有也要感恩
所以一句讲完，“神啊， 你点话点好啦！”



Staring into the night; All alone but that's alright;
         Its just the feeling deep inside that I don't like 

陶吉吉 - 祝你幸福

请你别再装傻
遇见我不必那么虚假
你有什么好尴尬
你又在利用我的心太软
你忘恩负义还用谎言报道我

你轻易就 忘掉你的承诺
我们的爱象保险套
用过就被丢掉
再提起过去一切我只感到无聊

我不要一直听你说我没有他的好
更不会祝福你俩快乐的活到老
好戏在后面你就等着瞧

我没你想像的那么好搞
我劝你不要再多说他对 你多好
以后别哭着回头把我找
我祝你们一辈子都快乐

No balls !

Long I have been prepared for the day he would announced "in-a-relationship"
I knew I had to be ready to face the fact anytime....Yet, when I saw it tis morning, I was taken aback.
I'm glad I did had the "found-out" effect...
I was practically alright, can eat, can joke, and deep within me it wasnt bothering me...
except the fact that the gal he was in-a-relationship with, is the gal I suspected from the start,
and he deny-ing even before I start! Well, he could've lie of coz...
what more, this gal had the same problem as I did, maybe even worse, yet, he still chose her, WTF?!!

Anyhow, I sincerely tell you, I will not bless ur new life,
because, I dun tink U know what u are doin.
But I will wish you good luck, so that u can handle this relationship
well, so that u will not hurt another person!

Blue - You make wanna

To start it off i know you know me,

to come to think of it, it was only last week

that i had a dream about us, oh

thats why im here, im editing this song

To tell the truth you know I've been hurting all along,

someway let me know, you want me

Well i know that these feelings wont end now

they'll just get stronger if i see you again

Baby im tired of being friends

I wanna know if you feel the same,

and could you tell me do you feel my pain?

Dont leave me in doubt

Everytime you see me what do u see?

i feel like im a poor gal and you're the king,

oh baby, youre the only thing that i really need,

baby thats why...

You make me wanna call you in the middle of the night

you make me wanna hold you till the morning light

I know this is a feeling that i just cant fight,

you're the first and last thing on my mind

You make me wanna love,

you make me wanna fall,

You make me wanna surrender my soul

Somebody's Miracle

Liz Phair

I'm so far, so far away from it now
That it seems like I may never know how
Each frog has a prince just waiting inside of him

There goes somebody's miracle
walking down the street
There goes some other fairy tales
I wish it could happen to me
But I look at myself and tink what the hell
Wonderin if I'm just too weak
To have such faith in myself
You know I'm prayin for it

I keep my tears to myself

Clown

I hate playing guessing games. I duno what you are tinking, I duno what's happening there. I duno why you do certain things certain ways, I duno why you tink you got the right to play with people's feelings. I certainly duno why I was in the game in the first place.

Its just a simple question, so hard to reply?
Although I told myself many times, just a concern, dun nid to expect anything, and so when I least expected, you became so hot. When I expect sth, you became cold. WTF!!! I really feel like spitting all this to you...I just din do it becoz I dun wanna ruin tis frenship. You dun try to guess what I'm up to, and dun try to make decisions for me. If u wan answer, u ask. Friendship is mutual, if we are both comfortable, why bother other factor? Damn it.

Really feel like I'm a clown. Each time I show my care, it looks like I've given to empty space....I cant even hear a sound or see a light of where did my care gone to. Definitely disappointed. Extremely heart broken. Not because of the unexpected outcome, but of why we cannot handle it like adults!!

梁静茹 - 你会不会

房间是你的气息 你还没醒
静静的头挨着你 你伸手握我手心
这是真的 还是种梦境
被捧在手心 还是不确定
爱来来去去 走走停停 无论多小心
说过不放感情 直到我遇见你
这不是运气 是种默契 却让我恐惧

OH 你会不会 热情往往会减退 对不对

遗憾变暖意 暖意变泪滴
泪滴变成钻石 我珍惜被你珍惜
爱 是水晶 好透明又怕被跌碎的心
偷偷窃喜 屏住呼吸

爱来来去去 走走停停 无论多小心

说过不放感情 不再患得患失

这不是运气 是种笃定 更怕会失去

OH 你会不会 热情往往会减退 对不对

2月7日 。 红色

刚刚在听 《听海》
海是什么颜色？灰色是不想说，蓝色是忧郁。。
《谈情说案》里，杨怡也有说到她分手后的心情，海就是黑色的。。。
原来海的颜色就可以简介一天过得如何
哪以后写日记不再写  6日。 晴 （反正晴天，雨天，都是好天）
直接写  某月某日。什么颜色 更好。


刚刚看了朋友的《求婚记》心情还没平复下来， 所以红色 ^^

DJ 介绍给我听

黄小琥 - 重来
你是否爱过
你爱他多过他爱你的人
你是否爱过
他有种真命天子般的人
你是否爱过
让你日夜忘不了的人
相爱以后终于分手
分手以后又想重来

如果能重来 诚实地去对待
彼此都没疑猜
就没有理由分开
如果能重来 回忆当作尘埃
心不曾被伤害
就能无瑕疵地爱
但是重来
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
要重来多少次后才会明白

Hebe - 猖狂

能约出来的人都约光
我以为痛苦可以分散
于是我 忙到不能再忙
一想起你 忙碌的生活变得空荡荡

我以为工作能够疗伤
甚至恨不得病倒再算
没力气遐想 谁知瘫痪在床上
越渴望你就在身旁

想得到释放只有投降